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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 02:38

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But ive been too sick for many years..

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She was in good health!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She married twice! .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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We were not on the streets..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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What did i know ?

I write beautiful poetry .

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

So whats the point in blame.

But it wasn’t much.

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Was to survive, this bastard.

One cannot live in the past .

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My family never makes their pension either.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why do old men think young women and girls would want them over guys their own age?

It was going to be , some day.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

How do I study with focus and concentration and avoid distractions and procrastination?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

She wouldn,t have been !

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Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Put me off passion for life!!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

(And it was in our own minds.)

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Ive learnt so much.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My life is so biszare .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I waited trembling.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I have no regrets .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Who then, do I blame.?

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She found it foreign!.

I will be 64.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I couldn’t, believe it.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I don,t even have a pension.

But, we were locked up after school.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

So, i spoilt her more .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I was very sick at this time too.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I was seconnd youngest,

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I said to her

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I never cut or harmed myself..

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

All the time i was locked up.

I could never make a relationship work though!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I was scared of men, in general

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

And i lived it daily.

As i do to all so called friends.?

This is soul school!.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Comes on , in middle age.

We all went to grammer schools

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

When she asked me how she looked .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Im still living with it.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

He resisted the act ,that day.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I was 9 years of age.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He knew the spot.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

She loved him until the end.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Especially a lifetime of it.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I think the readers, may guess!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Would this be the day?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)